why?

WHY? I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY..
WHY???
WHY TREAT ME LIKE THIS? 
TOTALLY FRUSTRATED... ...
............................................

upset

Why my life become like this recently ... -.-
I feel so upset ....
I can't live in harmony with my family. my sis. even my boy =/
It must be my problem....
I think I have to self-reflection ...
Give me some time pretty please my family? my friends? my boy?
I will get rid of my shortcomings...
If you think that I don't love you... up to you =/
I will try my best to treat you better........
until u can feel it .....


you say you always talk to me first after we quarreled
Not I think I'm always the right one kay ...
but you know.. I'm a passive person...
It won't be changed in the future of my life......-.-


ohkay .. you can take anything you like without my permission
I will TRY to not lose my temper........-.-
Hope that I can do IT .......=/


I will be a good girl. good daughter. good sis. good friend and good girlfriend.=P 


ohkay .. gonna end the topic noww.. 
and go to study .. =P 


I have to say this everyday :Cheer UP Racheal! ^^


Quote of the day :
" Listen! Encourage. Say something. Do something. Be yourself. Love"


bye.. 

sooooo Tired todayy ..=/

很累啊今天...=/
看到我严重的黑眼圈吗？@@
体育考试咯  跑圈20分钟  女生17圈满分  男生20圈
突然到～～～今天才讲，全部人都没有心理准备
还享受美味的早餐
我全身都很酸痛=(
这个就是没有运动的人咯....-.-
去年考一点痛都没有
哎呀～尤其是我的手臂  很够力酸
再加上今天的大太阳 ><
热到够力！
真的伤害了我的皮肤 =//
我要白啊 !
幸好下午有下一下的雨啦 =D

今天下午在viva‘s Starbucks 自修
尝了最新的Soy Chocolate Cream Frapp.=DD
蛮不错的，喜欢豆浆的朋友不防去试试哦! ^^
味道很特别^^
过后来了clover 和 choco
我们一起看了videos
哇～真的是lam死人啊～^^^^^^^
哈哈哈~~
然后咧～有点没有什么心温习了-.-.-.-
没有啦～还是有做习题，读几页咯...=P 

惨了~我没有毕业考的心情啊!
更不用说统考- ><
怎么办啊?
一直都是放假的心情.. -.-

今天去佛堂帮妈妈，当义工 =)
以前我都很羡慕人家都是一家大小一起来做义工
而我就是一个人和他们还有朋友一起做 =(
今天很开心啊，全家人都到^^
哈哈，除了哥哥咯，他在新加坡嘛～
明天下午还要去哦＝）
星期一最后一天，不能去因为有上课啊 ><

今天过得还不错，只不过全身上下都很酸痛啊! ><
明天还要补习-.-.-
唉～希望不会打瞌睡啦... =P

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I hate the ppl who use or take my thing without my permission.
随便拿.
这是很不礼貌的行为
很讨厌!
不是我自私，只是我真的不喜欢别人动我的东西没问我
你要，可以问我，真的
很可惜，你没做好手脚
被我发现了
我对你很失望很失望
how can you treat me like that?
不要让我有一天对你一点感情也没有.
我真的很想对你改观
可是你一次又一次的让我失望..
我找不到借口来让自己疼你.......

I hate =(

我真的很不喜欢你用那种语气跟我讲话
请你用那种语气前，先搞好状况
有时候你可以听听我说吗
你说，“为什么你就是不要信我？”
不是我不要信你，是我很肯定我是对的
你说你忘了，不用紧，那我跟你说，跟你解释跟你分析
听听不行吗
为什么要用那种语气跟我说话呢
以后可以不要用那种语气吗
我真的很不喜欢，不好受
我只怕有一天  我会真的受不了

17072011 A bored Sunday.

                                                                     so sunny today =/

I woke up at 10pm today..
I can't see mum cuz she already went out when we're still dreaming on the sweet bed..
so I have to cook a breakfast for myself... -.-
no bread... no egg... and no milk powder .... >< 
so I forced to open the refridge to get the HL milk and heated it up.. of course I added oatmeal =P
I kept adding a lot cuz felt like not enough.. haha .. so it became a big bowl of Porridge. haha .. =P
first time cooked it by myself ehh ...=P *clap clap ...=P

then uhhh .. went to tuition at 12pm.
Mr.bai (teacher) informed us yesterday midnight..lol...-.-
Fiona came to my house to fetch me there..
seeeeeeeeeeeee...... Fiona drives alone from Kajang to here lehhh ...
My licence is rubbish ... -.- -.- -.-
I get it alomost 1 year ehhh .. still drive to Maluri only........
yeah I know.. my parents are worry about me..
cuz my sense of direction is sooooo BAD..
I can't recognize which road... which direction.. which T-junction...
but at least let me try ... maybe I will become better lehhh?....
and everyone says my driving skill is ......................
haihhh I totally give up in drivng...
who is kindly pick me up here and there? 

after tuition, I was soo looking forward to have lunch at Zanmai with sis..
cuz tmr's her B'day. I promised her I'll be coming back as soon as possible..
I was soooo hungry ... cuz 3.30pm already.. hadn't have my lunch yet ....
then mum said, ''Next week lahh...seeee.. so sunny outside..''
then my mood became.. >>   (>_<) 
haihhhh .. I just felt disappointed........
and!! no lunch for me again.. ><
so I ate a bread with a slice of Cheese... simple and quick.=)
then waiting for my dinner...

after dinner we went to Leisure Mall to buy my new sport shoe.
I'm so looking forward to get a new pair of sport shoe...
BUT... NO STOCK.. It was THE LAST PAIR.. 
OH NO! wth.... I'm frustrated again............-.- -.-

oh yahh.. met Fiona's friends(C1 students) at LM too ..
few of them I know, lotza them I don't know.. 
and they were looked at me...
I felt soooooo SHY and didn't greet with them ..
arghhh .. afraid they will think that I'm a no manners person... =(
Hope they won't ...... =)
and I'm not that kind of person ... just felt so shy .. =P

then I continued my studies after reached home...
I can't reach my target.. which is, finish 2 books of business within this week ..
I only finished one book ..... -.-.-.-.-.-
but I've done all the obj quetions from 2005-2010 lahh .... =P

Cheer Up again Racheal ! ^^

sometimes.. we can't look so forward to something／someone, or you will feel disappointed more.....
I won't so look forward to anything now.... cuz I hate the feeling of disappointment....

okay I'm going to sleep now..
Good night world! ^^
see ya! =)

                                               our supper.. we finished it within 15 mins =PP

Friday

Time's passed soo fast ..

I spent half day on watching tv.. writing my diary...surfing the web....

and yeayy! Finally I done my Chinese Essay!!! =D 

quite sleepy noww....

and uhhh .. never do revision today =/

I must study tomorrow! eventhou is ma lovely Saturday ♥..-.-

aarrrrggghhhh !! >< 

my mood today is not very good..........

errr.... I'm going to pack my stuff and then SLEEP!!!! 

my skin(especially my face) even worst in these few daysss..

cuz not enough sleeping ...-.-.-.-

haihhhh.... EXAM. UEC.

I don't have target....Don't even know what's my direction......-.-

Good night world! ♥

Love? o.o

ohhh wowww.. just saw a news on google.
 It really shocked me ...
It's about  "A Man's Penis cut off". o.o
A Southern California woman cut off her estranged husband's penis and put it down a garbage disposal.
It's really hard to believe what would motivate a person do this..especially her husband..... =/
sad case.......=( 
I really don't understand what is true love .. 
has eternal love in this world? ...


---
aihhhh ...
we have communication problem....
mutual understanding...patience...
.............................


aihhh .. don't think don't think ... 
Don't think too much ..^^ 
sooo tired today .... =( 
going to study later... -.-
I have to say " cheeeerruuupp Racheal " for myself everyday.. 
" Cheer up Racheal ! " =P 


Nighty ... =)  

Harmonica Performance =)

yerrrr I had no luck today lahhhh ...><

we planned to have our favourite chee cheong fan for our lunch after school ..

but when we reached there... tak ada open worr. >< !@#%(... -.-

aihhh .. nevermind it .. >< 

But, today's weather is quite NICE! I love I love I love ! =P 

ohkay.. then I went to watch Harmonica Performance with ma boy and Evon today =) 

pity ehhh Von... her boy was practicing.. >< can't accompany her to watch it .. ><

and Fiona is even pity .. >< practicepracticepractice. rehearsalrehearselrehearsel ... ><

#she already bought ticket lahh ><   

ermmm .. quite nice lahh .. I love > I Hope, Marriage D'Amour, Turkish March and Canon In D .=) 

The piano player is sooooo Handsome lahh ><><>< and Kian Weng too ^^ 

woww! Jo wei solo ehhh .. ^^ U DID GOOD JOB! * clap clap ... ^^ 

Harmonica club! keep it up! ^^ 

but uhhhh .... my dear seemed doesn't enjoy the performance with me =(((((((((( 

yayyyyyyy! THIS SATURDAY NO SCHOOL! ^^^^

errrmmmmm uhhhh ...but can't go anywhere.... cuz about what bersih lalalala... 

so we only can stay at home .. -.-.-.-

I'm going to finish my Business within this week .. -.-

my speed is toooo slow lahhh ..>< 

aihhhh no heart to study .. WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY? =( 

Where is my HEART? =( 

Cheer up lahhh me.... >< 

ohkay, good night ! =) 

headache. ;(

keep headaching today .....
why ... -.-.-.-
ouuuuchhh! time flies sooo fast! ><
It's July now... @@
Uggghhhh I have to focus on ma Final & UEC ..
and uhh .. I'm gonna lose ma weight from JULY ! :-P
DIET DIET DIET! =P 
I believe I can do it .. =P
but uhhh ... quite lazy to do exercise ehhh .. @@
ahaa... =P

I went to sista's piano class today ..
yerrr... feel like playing some instrument nowww.. @@
I want to play violin.. cello..guita..clarinet..flute... ><><><
for entertain myself only lahh .. -.-

okay.. gotta sleep now... buai~
good night! ^^