我还好吗？

很久没上来了

因为我觉得没必要

现在 不一样了

因为不知道该哪抒发

所以想

这里应该不错吧？

因为也没什么人看 

呵呵

我现在的生活

说好也没什么好

说不好也没怎样

只是觉得生活空虚了许多

才知道

原来想象是跟显现实不一样的

很多人问我 

上课如何呀？

一定很开心吧

大学生活怎样啊

其实我的回答是一样的“不就这样咯”

因为也没什么好说

毕竟这条路是自己选的

无论如何都要努力走下去

我的人生也就现在才开始

其实 我比别人慢了2年

真的不是很好受

因为跟我同年的都快毕业了

我才刚开始

嗯。。。

现在只有自己不断鼓励自己

至于朋友呢

全部不懂去了哪里

说实在的

我真的没什么朋友

你们在哪里啊

对 我很差 我知道

可是我想念你们

以前的我真的很喜欢很喜欢出门

现在

我喜欢一个人在家

一个人在房间

或许

我选择回来不是对的吗

好吧

希望这3年赶快过

去一个比较适合我的地方

至于是哪里呢

不清楚

好啦 加油

我真的不想那么负面

可是这真的是我的感受现在

Boring Life

My life is getting boring and boring and boring ....

my partner is leaving this end month
cuz she is going to study make up course next month onwards.
left me alone..
it's been 1 year plus we working together. 
2 little girls are still new blur blur like that to support the outlet for almost 1 year..
our "senior" left us alone. 
everything hv to learn ourselves , settle ourselves 
we went through all up and down.. kena scold or what.. 
we still stand up and start again.. 

Now, you leave me alone
wish I can work well with my 2 juniors lah
I'm not a patient person, seriously.
Good luck to me huh. lol

the happiest thing I can do now is countdown for my trip!
22 days more! woohoo!

Racheal, You can do it no matter what! okay?

your family is always there no worries :) 

Happy Holiday Eve!

Happy Holiday Eve people!!

tomorrow is Good Friday

It's PH and my off day as well 

but I decided to go back work tomorrow

cuz can earn more money 

and knock off earlier 

teeeheeee 

:D

Hope my dear Nigel will recover soon
He is in the hospital now
cuz of the weather is damn terrible nowadays 
and he was in the NS 
training everyday under the sun 
his body is so weak 
the ulcers are all over his mouth 
he can't even eat a single thing 
been 5 days he never ate anything 
heartache 
you are strong! 
I believe you can do it! 
Jia you Nigel! 

haha I have nothing to do in the outlet today
felt so free
and felt like cooking something nice to eat for myself
what I imagined before cooking the noodles was sooo nice
but then
the end
..
was totally different ..
is like.
hmm doesn't look nice
but It's NICE seriously
hohoho..

Alright. I ate A LOT today again Failed 

:( 

awh my offday approved!

After Gym

ahaha. you know working in this company is very hard to take leave. 

even take 2 off days also damn hard .. 

I really missed my home.. 

Yesterday received my mum's call she said have to go back next month to pray our ancestors..

cuz next month is Ching Ming. 

so I tried to ask my manager to let me off 2 days so I able to go back. 

and She approved! 

I'm so happy today :D 

awh let me tell you one more thing,, 

finally I have one NC (new customer) today woohooo! 

50 le ^^ 10 more to go!! jia you! 

I woke up earlier to go to gym 

yay. it feel so good after gym ;) 

why can't meet any guy there... :( 

oohh I think should be too early.

who the hell will wake up so early to gym 

crazy

but no choice I have to work 

and work till 10pm everyday 

so must do in the morning :/

oh Just thought of my Vitagen still left in the pantry and I haven't finished it yet :( 

I think someone threw away le.. 

my dinner was 

maggie mee +hotdog +mushrooms +crabmeat +vegetables

damn full 

I'm gonna cook macaroni for my meal tomorrow teeeheee :) 

watching drama alone is not good 

cuz the happiness and sadness can't share with otherss..

laugh alone. emo alone.. 

crazy 

Just watched a video posted by my friend 

she did the video for her boyfriend 

their love story actually is quite sweet 

hmmm 

I was thinking how come people's love is that amazing is that wonderful 

but mine was like 

Nothing

like uhh 

Easy Come Easy Go. 

alright. never mind 

I'm still believing. :) 

Good night, my eyes are hurting :'( 

awh I ate durian cake just now in my room 

and the smell of the room was full of durian smell 

I used my Fascinating Ferragamo Perfume to spray all over the room 

now the smell of my room is shoooooo Nice :D

Terrible Weather

最近的天气真的是热到没有话讲

昨天睡觉我在sweating 

很热

很夸张热

多想自己按一架冷气在这

ok，不用，买一架小小的冷气风扇就好

不过

很贵

500多after discount

我不行

今天不开心因为又没有来客

还停留在49

sad

人家往上爬，一直爬

我还在原地踏步

是时候检讨一下了

想必明天的成绩又跌几层楼了

唉

incentives 没了

这几天，下个月要更更更省了

要买的东西又要挪后了

我觉得吼

我不会是喜欢买包包

买衣服

或买鞋子啊这些

不过我发现

我喜欢买香水来收集

因为我觉得香水很重要

是一个人其中一个重要的image

哈哈所以如果我有钱

应该会买很多很多不同的香水

有不同的新鲜感

哈哈

也是我bag的必备品

因为有是塔bus或mrt总是有些味道

尤其是bangladesh

是重到不行

Alright

明天拜三

再加油！努力！

I think tonight I can't sleep as well...

cuz uhhh.. I drank two cup of coffee today...

one was breakfast, another one was dinner :/

hope I can sleep lah

gonna take a shower first, bye ! =) 

My Next Target :D 

Hi Guys!

Hey yo! I' so excited that my Blog is still here! :D
It's been 1 year plus I never updated :(

but no worries, I'm gonna record down every single moment of my life from now on.
as I'm too bored here.. and uhhh .. Blogging mood on! :D

Everything has changed A LOT within 1 year..
I'm not studying now, but working..
all of my friends seems very enjoyed their UNI life..
but they told me assignments made them go crazy :(

So uhhh.. Should I start my school life?
or continue working ?
yeah. I'm so looking forward to my school life.
But I afraid can't take it the stress :/

And the point is,,,,

I haven't decided what course I'm gonna study yet :/ 

haihz...
..
ok. Next.

I bought the flight ticket to Australia for traveling already!!
I'm going with my bro. :)
I'm so EXCITED!
can't wait!
55 days left! 

haha

DIET DIET!! keep fit ! 
jia you ohh ! :D

Next.
got my Hollister stuff yesterday!
so happy!
quite Expensive tho ._.
but never mind, I love it!

oh my god.. I have no customer today ..
my position should be dropped tomorrow :'(

anyway, I must be in TOP 10 this month!
to get ma incentives !
Jia you Racheal ! :D

someone is toooo tired and never reply my message 
sigh
never mind, I have my baby Mac accompany tonight :)
muacks, miss you <3 nbsp="" p="">
Good night!

长这么大了
我才知道
原来我是个没用的人
我才知道我是有问题的人

why?

WHY? I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY..
WHY???
WHY TREAT ME LIKE THIS? 
TOTALLY FRUSTRATED... ...
............................................

upset

Why my life become like this recently ... -.-
I feel so upset ....
I can't live in harmony with my family. my sis. even my boy =/
It must be my problem....
I think I have to self-reflection ...
Give me some time pretty please my family? my friends? my boy?
I will get rid of my shortcomings...
If you think that I don't love you... up to you =/
I will try my best to treat you better........
until u can feel it .....


you say you always talk to me first after we quarreled
Not I think I'm always the right one kay ...
but you know.. I'm a passive person...
It won't be changed in the future of my life......-.-


ohkay .. you can take anything you like without my permission
I will TRY to not lose my temper........-.-
Hope that I can do IT .......=/


I will be a good girl. good daughter. good sis. good friend and good girlfriend.=P 


ohkay .. gonna end the topic noww.. 
and go to study .. =P 


I have to say this everyday :Cheer UP Racheal! ^^


Quote of the day :
" Listen! Encourage. Say something. Do something. Be yourself. Love"


bye.. 

sooooo Tired todayy ..=/

很累啊今天...=/
看到我严重的黑眼圈吗？@@
体育考试咯  跑圈20分钟  女生17圈满分  男生20圈
突然到～～～今天才讲，全部人都没有心理准备
还享受美味的早餐
我全身都很酸痛=(
这个就是没有运动的人咯....-.-
去年考一点痛都没有
哎呀～尤其是我的手臂  很够力酸
再加上今天的大太阳 ><
热到够力！
真的伤害了我的皮肤 =//
我要白啊 !
幸好下午有下一下的雨啦 =D

今天下午在viva‘s Starbucks 自修
尝了最新的Soy Chocolate Cream Frapp.=DD
蛮不错的，喜欢豆浆的朋友不防去试试哦! ^^
味道很特别^^
过后来了clover 和 choco
我们一起看了videos
哇～真的是lam死人啊～^^^^^^^
哈哈哈~~
然后咧～有点没有什么心温习了-.-.-.-
没有啦～还是有做习题，读几页咯...=P 

惨了~我没有毕业考的心情啊!
更不用说统考- ><
怎么办啊?
一直都是放假的心情.. -.-

今天去佛堂帮妈妈，当义工 =)
以前我都很羡慕人家都是一家大小一起来做义工
而我就是一个人和他们还有朋友一起做 =(
今天很开心啊，全家人都到^^
哈哈，除了哥哥咯，他在新加坡嘛～
明天下午还要去哦＝）
星期一最后一天，不能去因为有上课啊 ><

今天过得还不错，只不过全身上下都很酸痛啊! ><
明天还要补习-.-.-
唉～希望不会打瞌睡啦... =P

---------------------------------------------
I hate the ppl who use or take my thing without my permission.
随便拿.
这是很不礼貌的行为
很讨厌!
不是我自私，只是我真的不喜欢别人动我的东西没问我
你要，可以问我，真的
很可惜，你没做好手脚
被我发现了
我对你很失望很失望
how can you treat me like that?
不要让我有一天对你一点感情也没有.
我真的很想对你改观
可是你一次又一次的让我失望..
我找不到借口来让自己疼你.......

I hate =(

我真的很不喜欢你用那种语气跟我讲话
请你用那种语气前，先搞好状况
有时候你可以听听我说吗
你说，“为什么你就是不要信我？”
不是我不要信你，是我很肯定我是对的
你说你忘了，不用紧，那我跟你说，跟你解释跟你分析
听听不行吗
为什么要用那种语气跟我说话呢
以后可以不要用那种语气吗
我真的很不喜欢，不好受
我只怕有一天  我会真的受不了

17072011 A bored Sunday.

                                                                     so sunny today =/

I woke up at 10pm today..
I can't see mum cuz she already went out when we're still dreaming on the sweet bed..
so I have to cook a breakfast for myself... -.-
no bread... no egg... and no milk powder .... >< 
so I forced to open the refridge to get the HL milk and heated it up.. of course I added oatmeal =P
I kept adding a lot cuz felt like not enough.. haha .. so it became a big bowl of Porridge. haha .. =P
first time cooked it by myself ehh ...=P *clap clap ...=P

then uhhh .. went to tuition at 12pm.
Mr.bai (teacher) informed us yesterday midnight..lol...-.-
Fiona came to my house to fetch me there..
seeeeeeeeeeeee...... Fiona drives alone from Kajang to here lehhh ...
My licence is rubbish ... -.- -.- -.-
I get it alomost 1 year ehhh .. still drive to Maluri only........
yeah I know.. my parents are worry about me..
cuz my sense of direction is sooooo BAD..
I can't recognize which road... which direction.. which T-junction...
but at least let me try ... maybe I will become better lehhh?....
and everyone says my driving skill is ......................
haihhh I totally give up in drivng...
who is kindly pick me up here and there? 

after tuition, I was soo looking forward to have lunch at Zanmai with sis..
cuz tmr's her B'day. I promised her I'll be coming back as soon as possible..
I was soooo hungry ... cuz 3.30pm already.. hadn't have my lunch yet ....
then mum said, ''Next week lahh...seeee.. so sunny outside..''
then my mood became.. >>   (>_<) 
haihhhh .. I just felt disappointed........
and!! no lunch for me again.. ><
so I ate a bread with a slice of Cheese... simple and quick.=)
then waiting for my dinner...

after dinner we went to Leisure Mall to buy my new sport shoe.
I'm so looking forward to get a new pair of sport shoe...
BUT... NO STOCK.. It was THE LAST PAIR.. 
OH NO! wth.... I'm frustrated again............-.- -.-

oh yahh.. met Fiona's friends(C1 students) at LM too ..
few of them I know, lotza them I don't know.. 
and they were looked at me...
I felt soooooo SHY and didn't greet with them ..
arghhh .. afraid they will think that I'm a no manners person... =(
Hope they won't ...... =)
and I'm not that kind of person ... just felt so shy .. =P

then I continued my studies after reached home...
I can't reach my target.. which is, finish 2 books of business within this week ..
I only finished one book ..... -.-.-.-.-.-
but I've done all the obj quetions from 2005-2010 lahh .... =P

Cheer Up again Racheal ! ^^

sometimes.. we can't look so forward to something／someone, or you will feel disappointed more.....
I won't so look forward to anything now.... cuz I hate the feeling of disappointment....

okay I'm going to sleep now..
Good night world! ^^
see ya! =)

                                               our supper.. we finished it within 15 mins =PP

Friday

Time's passed soo fast ..

I spent half day on watching tv.. writing my diary...surfing the web....

and yeayy! Finally I done my Chinese Essay!!! =D 

quite sleepy noww....

and uhhh .. never do revision today =/

I must study tomorrow! eventhou is ma lovely Saturday ♥..-.-

aarrrrggghhhh !! >< 

my mood today is not very good..........

errr.... I'm going to pack my stuff and then SLEEP!!!! 

my skin(especially my face) even worst in these few daysss..

cuz not enough sleeping ...-.-.-.-

haihhhh.... EXAM. UEC.

I don't have target....Don't even know what's my direction......-.-

Good night world! ♥

Love? o.o

ohhh wowww.. just saw a news on google.
 It really shocked me ...
It's about  "A Man's Penis cut off". o.o
A Southern California woman cut off her estranged husband's penis and put it down a garbage disposal.
It's really hard to believe what would motivate a person do this..especially her husband..... =/
sad case.......=( 
I really don't understand what is true love .. 
has eternal love in this world? ...


---
aihhhh ...
we have communication problem....
mutual understanding...patience...
.............................


aihhh .. don't think don't think ... 
Don't think too much ..^^ 
sooo tired today .... =( 
going to study later... -.-
I have to say " cheeeerruuupp Racheal " for myself everyday.. 
" Cheer up Racheal ! " =P 


Nighty ... =)  

Harmonica Performance =)

yerrrr I had no luck today lahhhh ...><

we planned to have our favourite chee cheong fan for our lunch after school ..

but when we reached there... tak ada open worr. >< !@#%(... -.-

aihhh .. nevermind it .. >< 

But, today's weather is quite NICE! I love I love I love ! =P 

ohkay.. then I went to watch Harmonica Performance with ma boy and Evon today =) 

pity ehhh Von... her boy was practicing.. >< can't accompany her to watch it .. ><

and Fiona is even pity .. >< practicepracticepractice. rehearsalrehearselrehearsel ... ><

#she already bought ticket lahh ><   

ermmm .. quite nice lahh .. I love > I Hope, Marriage D'Amour, Turkish March and Canon In D .=) 

The piano player is sooooo Handsome lahh ><><>< and Kian Weng too ^^ 

woww! Jo wei solo ehhh .. ^^ U DID GOOD JOB! * clap clap ... ^^ 

Harmonica club! keep it up! ^^ 

but uhhhh .... my dear seemed doesn't enjoy the performance with me =(((((((((( 

yayyyyyyy! THIS SATURDAY NO SCHOOL! ^^^^

errrmmmmm uhhhh ...but can't go anywhere.... cuz about what bersih lalalala... 

so we only can stay at home .. -.-.-.-

I'm going to finish my Business within this week .. -.-

my speed is toooo slow lahhh ..>< 

aihhhh no heart to study .. WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY? =( 

Where is my HEART? =( 

Cheer up lahhh me.... >< 

ohkay, good night ! =) 

headache. ;(

keep headaching today .....
why ... -.-.-.-
ouuuuchhh! time flies sooo fast! ><
It's July now... @@
Uggghhhh I have to focus on ma Final & UEC ..
and uhh .. I'm gonna lose ma weight from JULY ! :-P
DIET DIET DIET! =P 
I believe I can do it .. =P
but uhhh ... quite lazy to do exercise ehhh .. @@
ahaa... =P

I went to sista's piano class today ..
yerrr... feel like playing some instrument nowww.. @@
I want to play violin.. cello..guita..clarinet..flute... ><><><
for entertain myself only lahh .. -.-

okay.. gotta sleep now... buai~
good night! ^^

aha, granny gave me an angpao for ma 18-year-old Birthday. ^^
yayy!! thank you ma granny =D
soooo looking forward to my present this year =P
my parentss..ma siblingss.. my sisters.. my friendss.. and especially YOU! (ma boyfie) =P
18-year-old ehh ..=^^=
ermmm uhh .. don't so looking forward lahh ..will disappoited more..-.-.-
aha, I'll buy a small present for maself I think .. lalalala.. see lahh =PP

so bored today.. plus the weather is sososo BAD  =/
No motivation to do anything.. kept playing the phone -.-.-.-
dear went to Genting today.. come back home tmr.. =)
sooo Good lahh .. can enjoy the nice weather there..^^
thought tonight will raining...
but now.... belum rain........ =/

We're going to S'pore on the coming monday..=) 
ermmm uhh .. friday just come back.. ^^
Thank you ma dear for lending me his phone so I won't get bored in the bus.^^ 
Thank You so muuuchhh!! =D 

we'll meet each other one week later..=)
Don't missed me yeah =PPP
ahaha, I'll force maself to not missing you =PPPP
ehehehe..=PP
.
Thank you ma dear once again for giving me a lot of Happiness yesterday.=)))
feel happy and enjoyed being with you =PPP
lalalalalalala.....

arggghhh... don't think don't think ..
must concerntrate on studies after reopen school
FOCUS ON STUDIES! 
our UEC ahhh ..
the most important in our secondary life =)
awwww shit.. haven't done ma homework yet ..
haha.. yeah, I'm not tired..
is actually Lazy, and procratinating it .=PPP
aiya, I'll do it before reopen school lahh! =)

okay, time to sleep, bye ~ ^^

Gathering..

Today is a very very HOT day..argggghhhh!! >.<
feel like drinking some cold drinkss and online in the cold environment...
yesterday was a very nice day.. with GOOD weather ^^
went to Marie's house..gathering with S1 and S2 classmates.
partying partying yeahhh..
Fun Fun Fun..lalala....=P
but we went back early..
cuz mummy was worried bout dear's safety..
aha, nvm nvm. still got many chances lahh ..
Christmas? new year eve?
we have lotza freee time after UEC :P

oh yah! ThanKs ma dear for coming ma house to solve the internet problem.^^
yes! thank you so much ^^
aha.. JOGOYA for a year lahh =PPPP
and I'll become thinner and thinner..=PP
cuz have to save money to pay the bill =PP

So LOOKING FORWARD TOMORROW!!! 
can't wait to date with ma boy =))
wish tmr's weather is NICE. No sun and windy .. ^^
god bless us plsss..
Cuz I never apply sunblock and stuff..-.-
Happy Dating tmr! =PP

no plans for today..
do Book-keeping later maybe? -.-

        -- End --

sometimes I  wonder, when fall in love to someone, the bottom line of a person will be lower gradually

I love Apple =P

HI..^^

been long time didn't update ady horrr.. =P
okay, now I got lotza freeeeeee time to blog =))

Finally, I get ma MacbookPro.^^
yayyy!! thank you daddy and mummy! ^^
I'll take care of my precious baby very well =)
and gonna spend lotza money on her =//
but for me, it is worthy lahhh .. Cuz I love her =PP
of course, I Love ma PARENTS Most =DD

I'll try harder to learn how to use ma macbook .=)
yes, I'm a techno-blind. (my boy says)
quite hurtssss..... =((
cheer up Racheal! :PP
who can teach me? lalalalalalalalalala.. =))
ermmm uhh, maybe I'll be interested in graphic design or sth in the future?..
ehehe.. =P

aha, I don't need to buy newspaper ady..
I can read up-to-date news everyday on ma Mac=PP
I have to save money from now on.. cuz gonna buy some stuff for ma baby=))
and don't wanna spend lotza daddy's money from now on. =)

okay, end topic =)))

woooahhhh..looking forward to ma date and the vacation next week =)) 
gonna plan what to buy in S'pore =DD (look forward lah dear =) )

still have lotza unfinished homeworks  =///
and my cupboard and desk.. are soooo messsyyy ... lazy to tidy up ma stuff ehhh ..=PP 

I DISLIKE YOU !!